I am a Bingeosaurus Rex. It's been horrible! It's getting harder and harder, because I make dinner for my boyfriend every day. We literally live in eachother's shoes here, and he notices when I don't eat. His ex was so thin, so skinny, and I think she might have been anorectic.So even when I manage to fast one day, I might HAVE to eat the next and whoosh, I can't stop from bingeing.
But when he's admitted to the military in January, I'll be able to fast. As much as I want.
Not that I'm looking FORWARD to it, he's the best thing in my life. And I sort of feel a bit guilty for not telling him about my E.Ds, but then again I don't want him to pay attention to what I'm eating; too much or too little.
This is why I must go back to restricting and exercising, something I haven't done for a long time now. I'll have to spend some time this weekend to buy/make/plan out portions of food for the week to come. Sigh.
At least I ate less today than other past days. This:
-Some dried fruit
-A whole grain muffin
-An orange
-Melon yoghurt and granola
-Pasta, meat and chopped tomatoes. Not a lot.
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