I'm ready to take a stance here. I won't weigh until I feel like I've fasted enough for some time.
Want to know something stupid? I'm already dreading Christmas. My boyfriend, let's call him... Chris; wants me to come home with him for the holidays to meet his family. He keeps going on about all the food and how he can gain 5 kg only during the parties and such. But then he says he loses it all in a week or so. His metabolism is so unfairly high...
SHIT. I just realized his BMI is lower than mine if I don't get down from 55. Ew.
I want to be thin for x-mas. I don't want to gain. I don't want him to find out about my ED either.
Life sure can be complicated.
Another complicated thing: Chris' ex, who is by the way thin as a stick figure, wants to meet him this week. I trust him completely, it's HER I don't trust. She's a manipulative bitch is what she is. Grr.
But he says he thinks she'll be hospitalized. For what? I asked. He said he doesn't know, but I have a feeling he does. It's not in regular hospital though, it's in some sort of psych ward.
He also said "but that way she'll be out of the way, so, great." Huh.
Hey, thanks so much for offering to do the cleanse with me!!
ReplyDeleteRight now, I'm doing a month-long liquid fast with the Hungry For Change group, but I am trying to change it up a bit.
Would yu be willing to do a 5-day long lemon cleanse with me? All liquids of course :)
I wanna start on monday, but only if i have someone to do it with.
how does it sound?
my email's MianaItalia@gmail.com
anyone who wants to join, awesome!!
xoxoxo
thanks so much again!
love your blog!